stuck.

i meant to post this a while ago but never got around to it. this is how i found beckett during one of his naps. when i put him down to bed he will cry for a couple of minutes in protest. one day he was crying a little longer than usual but i just ignored it. when he finally fell asleep i went to check on him and this was his position. i felt pretty bad. no wonder he was crying so long. i imagine he was saying something like this, "hey mom! what the heck? i am freaking stuck in my crib. get over here! oh, forget it...you're obviously not coming. i guess i will just go to sleep."

made in morocco

yes, that's right, we are already having another baby. this one caught us by surprise. well, not all of us. i should say that the week before i found out ella was asking me for another baby, a sister in particular. she was actually wanting beckett to go back into my tummy to come out a little baby again, one that she could hold. at least that is what she thought could happen. i had to explain that was in no way possible (the beckett back in my belly thing). the next thing i know is i am feeling really tired and a nap isn't cutting it. the real kicker was when eating chocolate made me nauseous. that was when i knew. i knew that i knew. and i was right. we are expecting baby #3 august 12th.

oh, scott says the baby is giving us the finger. "you know...the finger..." but not my sweet baby.

sick.

my nine month stint is over. i am officially sick with the flu. as much as i hate to admit it, it am. i used to pride myself on the fact that everyone around me could get sick, but somehow i always stayed healthy. for nine months i managed to stay fine, nine months! i remember it clearly because beckett was just a newborn and scott was back at work so my dad had to fly in to help me with the kids (thanks dad!) scott used to call my immunity my superpower. i think this last week finally did me in. the kids got really sick, one at a time, and then scott got sick. i guess it was a matter of time. poor beckett, he was so mad at me today. i could not pick him up, i mean, have you seen him? he is huge and my whole body was aching so i would just sit with him on the floor or just leave him to cry by himself (i know i am a terrible mom). so scott comes home to pick up ella to take her to lunch at his school and as soon as scott walks in the door b zooms right to him, crying his eyes out...i think he was trying to tell on me. scott tries to hand him back to me and beckett would not come to me. he has never ever done that. he was royally pissed off at me. i don't think he is over it yet.

here is my conversation with ella about mommies getting sick (on sunday before i got the flu.)

ella: mommy are you sick?
me: no, mommies can't get sick.
ella: why?
me: well, who takes care of mommies when mommies are sick? (hoping she will say, "mommy i will take care of you because i love you, you take care of me, ....")
ella: NOBODY!

not true, scott was a real trooper today canceling a meeting to be at home with the kids and prep dinner for tomorrow night. thanks, babe!

merry christmas and happy new year.

the douglass casa has been out and about. we met up with aina, cub cub, and charlotte in madrid a week ago. we spent a couple days in spain with them and now we are all back here in casa. we are loving every minute here with them. aina has been good about updating their blog about our time together so check out what we have been up to. click on the link to AINA'S BLOG.